my last blog post was about Cantor's Diagonal Argument (still a topic that boggles my mind

). That was in March of 2020. Before the pandemic really started around here.
A lot has happened since then. I haven't played with my band since then or done some of the things I used to. And that honestly hurts a lot. The pandemic didn't bother me too much emotionally at first. But if I'm honest it's really starting to get to me now. I miss hanging out with friends, some that I no longer have. I've actually almost gone really crazy a few times, getting pretty close this past summer of 2021.
I was laid off from my job last summer of 2020 for just a month but it was very uncertain at the time, very stressful. Now work's tougher than ever and they're hiring new people during a covid outbreak at my job. One co-worker is currently in the hospital. (Because nobody follows guidelines here). I've had a to do a lot of filling in for other people which can be very unpleasant at my job. I keep putting off looking/getting prepared to get another job; school/training etc. I really should. I always wanted to learn to weld for example; that sort of job pays really well...
Looking to buy a house for almost a year; total dud. Not a buyer's market, at all. Finding an apartment to rent is even difficult now. This has me depressed.
Struggling with changes/realizations about myself big time. Some days it's no big deal and things seem fine. Other days not so much. Like I said above, feel like teetering on the edge of sanity sometimes, it's not great. Really not sure where life is going to take me at this point tbh. Thought my life was going to be pretty boring but idk now...